Reflective Seeds by Counsellor Seyram

I was a new mum in 2020 when I lost my job unexpectedly. I didn't see it coming! I didn't contribute to it in anyway. It just happened because someone wanted to bring in their relative and I was the sacrificial lamb! This affected me both mentally and physically. I got depressed. It was a bitter pill to swallow.  It also affected my marital home because it meant that we had just one source of income. You couldn't ask for anything; all responsibilities were on the man. There were times I wanted to just leave the house but to where? I didn't have any money. I knew I was mentally exhausted but I could not even open up to people because I didn't want a pity party neither did I want my issues moving around. Also, I am quite paranoid so I was scared to open up to people. It was not an easy journey. For four (4) years I lost myself, I wouldn't even look in the mirror. I honestly don't know how I got out of that difficult phase of my life. I also don't recall ...

Back in the University, I was in a relationship with this guy. Everything was beautiful and all rosy in the beginning. He was always showering me with gifts. He became very possessive, always threatening my male friends and colleagues. He even warned my study mate to stay away from me. Initially, I felt his possessive attitude meant he was protective and was showing me love but it became worse by the day. He had a bad temper and became abusive but he had a way of apologising and I forgave him because I wanted the relationship to work. His mum told me about his temper and asked me to handle it with patience. There was a day he got angry and hit me, I cried my eyes out, I couldn't believe it happened to me, he came apologising. I forgave him but couldn’t leave the relationship. His temper and anger issues were escalating. I wanted out but couldn't voice out. In my mind I had signed out of that relationship but couldn't tell him due to his temper. I was scared of his react...